Cysts from hell are gone

Holy crap! The doctor said the cysts on my ovary were as big as my uterus. The photos were, as usual, amazing.  I cried a bit to know that these foreign objects were making a home inside me.

Being still so I can heal is very difficult.  I am going a bit stir crazy and ready for Monday.

I have been occupying my time with random posts on social media.

#440: Plant something that attracts bees. They need our help.

I love your guts!

Tears of madness, sadness or fear?

One day, I could be a song writer (also known as modern day poet). In the past couple of weeks, I have been brought to tears at the oddest times. In the shower, in the car and sometimes just sitting at my computer. There is so much going on in my head that maybe I am on overload. I know it is good for the soul to cry, but I prefer to sweat.

Last week, during spring break, I spent most of the days at SXSW. I worked the Dell Venue and then had the opportunity to check out the rest of the activities. I had a great time and soaked in time with my friends. While there, I did not have time to think about cancer, crying or anything else. Times like this are precious and the best part of living. #JustKeepLivin'

I am scheduled to have surgery tomorrow morning, March 20, to remove the space invading tumors of negativity. I hang on the words uttered by my doctor that at first glance that they do not appear to be cancerous but we will know for sure after pathology has worked their "magic". I take a few moments during the day to breathe deeply and be still. The stillness helps me connect with my inner soul and hold tight to positive thoughts. I declare that I will win this round. So far, Nikki 3 and cancer 0. I expect after the pathology results, I will be 4-0.

Item #848 Crappy news is never fair. Be a winner and turn your frown upside down and choose to have a positive outlook.

I love your guts!

Zen

When I was leaving the gym this morning, I felt great! Soaked in sweat. Messy hair. And basked in the Glory of the sunshine, despite the fact the temperature was below freezing. 

This is not a temporary thing for me because I want to lose something.

This is a lifestyle change because I found something that I want to hold onto and never let go. 

Find your something and make it a habit. #NeverQuit 

#294 Finding balance is not like a scavenger hunt, it is something you commit to in your life. We make time for what we need, then what we want. Why not make time for what feeds our soul. 

Tennis ball. Golf ball.

I went to see my gynecologist to get an assessment on what is going on with my right (remaining) ovary. I was not too excited when I saw the screen and felt the pressure of the sonogram. I saw a large dark spot. And then another. Good grief. When my doctor measured them, he indicated that one was the size of a golf ball and the other the size of a tennis ball. (gulp) This is not the news I was expecting. Despite all the good I had been doing with diet and exercise, my organs were hosting cysts. (sarcasm)

The question you are asking yourself, now that your jaw has shut after dropping on the floor, is now what is going to happen. This is a bit complicated. Since I have moderately elevated liver enzymes, I need to meet with my GI doctor to share the news that I need surgery and if there are any concerns on his part. If he gives the all clear, I call to schedule my surgery to remove my ovary and uterus. This is all a bit overwhelming, but I try not to think about it right now. I have way too much to think about to keep me busy.

Item #540: Fill your cup with love and gratitude. 

I love your guts!