Get out, Jack!

Uncle Si - courtesy of Duck Dynasty

Friday afternoon my surgeon, Dr. B, will remove the 'thorn' in my side. When I refer to thorn, it is the lump I found under my skin on my left ribs. 

My doctors say this will be easy to take care of but what I hear is, 'Ok neurotic lady, we will do what it takes to make you feel better. And check to see if the mass is cancerous or not.' One thing I learned form others in my cancer support group is to continue to keep a positive attitude. Nothing is too small to be ignored. Address everything with your doctor because you never know what is going on inside of you.

What do I need? Pray that I heal quickly and get back on track. I have things to do and places to visit.

I love your guts!

One more thing...

I am not giving this disease the power it is looking for today. It wants to suck the life out of me. Well, buddy, get in line. It's not the initial diagnosis that is painful and hits you like a truck. It is the living with the aftermath and not knowing what the heck is going on in the superhighway under your skin.

Tomorrow I go visit (ha, like we're old friends) my surgeon because I found an almond sized lump under my skin on my ribs. Yes, this is right. The bump is similar in fashion to what I found over a year ago. So, tomorrow, I 'visit' my surgeon to set up a date to get this jackass out of me. However, I want to make sure we don't make a habit of seeing each other too often, so I am asking if I should have a PET scan to see if there are more and if we should make a party of this event. [sigh]

Yes, I am distracted by this occurrence. Not as much as I was when I was told that I have cancer. My oncologist thinks there is a low chance that it is cancer, especially since my markers have been on the low side. However, it is not certain until they get it out and test it to get the final word. 

My message today is not inspirational or breakthrough. I am anxious, mad and tired all wrapped into a neat little bow. My kids keep me laughing and this is the best thing. Yes, I am working from home and they are here with me as a reminder of what is most important for me at the end of the day. I have it better than most and am so very thankful. Kiss those you love. Hug them tight. And give that one friend a call and tell them you were thinking about them and hope they are doing well. Those tiny gestures go a long way beyond the moment.

I love your guts!

Now I need to go clean up little hands full of paint because I left them unsupervised to write this entry. 

Life moments

Hang on tight. Life goes by fast, in the same way a ride on an awesome roller coaster. If you close your eyes, you will miss out.

Long ago, Jeff told me that it was the little things we remember. As I have gone through life, he was right. SHhhhh, do not mention this post to him ;)

Today, I took time away from my work to attend the 2nd grade award assembly for Brett. The ceremony was very efficient, but at the same time, I was a bit remiss about not coming to more activities/events. I do not want to miss out on more and know that I cannot be there for everything, but will do my best to schedule to be more available.

Brett recently lost one of his front teeth and said that he knows he will need braces soon. I am not ready for this step in life yet. Slow down, Father Time. And Madison keeps talking about when she's 15 she will be closer to driving and wearing make up. What? Yes, make up. 

Allow me to share a few photos of them. Snapped at a moment in time that will never be repeated. Just admired and remembered. 

 

 

Take time to drink in the moment. They go by faster than a roller coaster.

I love your guts!

Miracles DO happen

I pray and stay positive to bring my declarations to life. I am centered by my prayers for strength, wisdom and compassion. Breathing deep to relax my mind and body help me be a better person to myself and those around me. When I hear of someone in need, I am compelled, as most of us would be, to contribute to make a difference. Every day, someone is in need around you. Be still and listen for their request.

Remarkable what happens when we observe signs and sound around us. Pay attention!

Item #90: Drink more water.

I love your guts!