I made a decision

I will not take the chemo treatment

After listening to the recommendation from my oncologist, I made the decision not to take the chemo treatment. I know there is still a small chance of recurrence, but my faith has helped me feel at peace with my decision.


I choose to focus on the fact that the glass is 88% full. I have a good chance for the cancer not coming back with the combination of surgery, radiation and tamoxifen (pills I will take 1 pill a day for the next 5 years). Oh yeah, tamoxifen is a cornerstone to the treatment. Too bad they don't have a patch for this or an injection. 

Next up...radiation

Wednesday afternoon, I get measured and mapped for radiation. I hear it's like having a group of treasure map X's placed on you that you cannot wash off. Ha! This is going to be fun. [I hope you sensed the sarcasm.] This will be another adventure. The nurse told me that I would start as early as Thursday or on Monday, April 2. This will be a journey of 6 and 1/2 weeks of treatments Monday through Friday. Yes, I will need help with kids and home but not sure when and what. 

How do I feel?

I feel good. I am not in any pain. I am healing very well from surgery. The scars are minimal, thanks to Maderma. Thanks Mom! Oh yes, and I have a new appliance that was installed today. Jeff and I purchased a new gas stove with 5 burners.  Not only was it a great deal, but after getting the run around, we got the stove installed. Now, my kitchen is complete with all black appliances. I cannot wait to cook tomorrow, even if it is reheating left overs or making scrambled eggs. Every day is great because the sun feels a little warmer and the kids run around a little faster. My life is better than most and sometimes I forget I have cancer. Those are the moments when I smile. 

I love your guts!

P.S. Aunt Vicki, I guess I'm not as close to the summit as I thought I was a few weeks ago, but I'm getting close with every step :)