Where is the end of the tunnel?

I am about 4 months out from surgery removing my orange sized ovary and its friends - non-cancerous cysts. I made a decision made on faith and my conservative nature, I only opted for single ovary removal, thinking the rest of my organs would behave. Well...they are not complying with my demands and appear to be out of my control. 

Non-graphic info coming next. So you can close the page or keep reading...at your discretion. 

My uterine lining is not thin, but not too thick to be concerned. And my right ovary has a few visible cysts on them that "should work their way out" within the next couple of months. SHIT! Didn't I just hear this back in September???? Give me a break! I just need one ounce of good news. My doctor (GYNO) was positive and said that I need to come back in 2 months to check the status before he can "officially" give me the all clear. (Insert more cuss words out of frustration here.)

Apparently the news I got in October with the tissue results coming back as non-cancerous does not mean I'm out of the woods. He doesn't seem to think that there is cancer present but would like to monitor me and recheck in 8 weeks. At this point he can make the final declaration. Newsflash - I heard the declaration back in October and I'm feeling pretty good.

No, I do not want cheese to go with my wine. I need to whine about this because I am a control freak. I want things how I want them and that is that. When I let go and let God, perhaps I did not let go all the way. I was probably still hanging on to the wheel of life. When you see me next time, please give me a gentle shake and remind me who is in charge. I'll love you a little more for the reminder.

Deep breathing and lots of water drinking. In with the good and out with the bad.

I love your guts!