I am about 4 months out from surgery removing my orange sized ovary and its friends - non-cancerous cysts. I made a decision made on faith and my conservative nature, I only opted for single ovary removal, thinking the rest of my organs would behave. Well...they are not complying with my demands and appear to be out of my control.
Non-graphic info coming next. So you can close the page or keep reading...at your discretion.
My uterine lining is not thin, but not too thick to be concerned. And my right ovary has a few visible cysts on them that "should work their way out" within the next couple of months. SHIT! Didn't I just hear this back in September???? Give me a break! I just need one ounce of good news. My doctor (GYNO) was positive and said that I need to come back in 2 months to check the status before he can "officially" give me the all clear. (Insert more cuss words out of frustration here.)
Apparently the news I got in October with the tissue results coming back as non-cancerous does not mean I'm out of the woods. He doesn't seem to think that there is cancer present but would like to monitor me and recheck in 8 weeks. At this point he can make the final declaration. Newsflash - I heard the declaration back in October and I'm feeling pretty good.
No, I do not want cheese to go with my wine. I need to whine about this because I am a control freak. I want things how I want them and that is that. When I let go and let God, perhaps I did not let go all the way. I was probably still hanging on to the wheel of life. When you see me next time, please give me a gentle shake and remind me who is in charge. I'll love you a little more for the reminder.
Deep breathing and lots of water drinking. In with the good and out with the bad.
I love your guts!
Many of you may have noticed that I had not posted anything since the end of September. Well, let me bring you up to speed. Buckle up!
- October - removed left ovary that was the size of an orange with multiple cysts (no cancer detected)
- November - we sold our home and moved into a new home just before Thanksgiving
- December - we hosted our family for Christmas Eve celebration
- January - my 1 yr mammogram appointment went well (ALL CLEAR!)
- February - I am now in deep with lots of projects at work. I am taking the 40 day yoga challenge (30 classes in 40 days) to get my health back in check.
Today is Valentine's day and this is a perfect time for me to spread the love back at those that care for me.
Thank you Jeff for encouraging me and keeping me focused on what is most important. And for reminding me how little and insignificant irritants in my day are because I kicked cancer in the ass.
Thank you to my parents for keeping the kids an extra hour or so in the afternoon so I can get my classes in after work. And for the unwavering support you have shown me.
Thank you to my extended family that are here for me at a moments notice to listen and give me words of encouragement.
Thank you to my friends that I see in person and in the digital space. I feel the love and appreciate you!
Thank you to my kids. When mommy isn't always feeling great, a smile, hug or your silly words make my day great!
And to my guiding angels that are my reminder how fragile each day is and realize their sacrifices and love they gave me helped shape who I am. I am strong. I am worthy. I am stubborn. I am free.
My words for you...shake off yesterday. Stand tall today and give your best in everything you do and everyone you meet.
Remember, I LOVE YOUR GUTS!
